UGH - 240

What the heck is going on here!? How did I become 240lbs of fun?

Well, I could blame it on my five children, but really - this ass was pretty much my ass before I started having kids. Who to blame:

1. My father - for always making us eat everything on our plate
2. My father - for always making snakes before we went to bed
3. the 80's - for not figuring out that exercise and whole foods were important
4. the food processing companies - for making it so easy for my single father to cook every night
5. McDonalds - can't even blame them - we couldn't afford mickey d's
6. My mother - when I look in the mirror, I have the SAME EXACT body. UGH

I guess, I could come up with a long list of what went wrong in my life that brought me to this point. Fat, tired, bored, depressed, and whatever else goes along with having five children under the age of 6, grad-school, etc.

Oh, did I mention my liver disease. Yes, liver disease! All brought on by eating the wrong stuff and not exercising (which, by the way, is the exact opposite of the cure for liver inflammation - that could eventually lead to non-alcoholic cirrhosis). So, no happy pill cure-all for me... just eating less fat and exercising. UGH!

So, here is my plan: I joined weight watchers (again - 4 times a charm). I belong to the YMCA (hope to actually use the facilities in 2009). Make better food choices for myself, so that eventually I can make better food choices for my family. I really don't want them to carry on the rip the box top off the Hamburger Helper cooking that I grew up with (no, Dad, I'm not really complaining - I do appreciate that we had dinner every night as a family sitting at the dinner table).

I, however, have never been able to stick to anything. I am hoping to follow my progress with this blog so that I will have a record (or support) for where I'm going and how I'm getting there. My goal is not to be a size 2, but to be healthy and actually fit into my winter coat (yes, at this point, I can't zipper my winter coat).

Wish me luck!