Ham Whores

Lean Cuisine Margarita Pizza (my fav): 7 points
Salad:
2tblspn Kens Light Balsamic Vinagrette: 1 point
Romaine
Onions
Tomato
sprinkle parm cheese

So, I joined WW in November some time - I signed up for their Fast Pass: get billed once a month $49.50, which is less than paying every week. Anyway, when I registered, I didn't have a sink (we just moved home after 3 months of fire renovation and our kitchen counters weren't in yet). I didn't really believe I was going to follow the program because it was just too hard: 5 kids, no sink - couldn't cook or wash dishes, etc. It really didn't upset me that I kept paying without going - I NEEDED TO GET THERE or it would never happen. I successfully made it to 3 meetings and then ALL of my children got rotavirus and hell broke loose two weeks before Christmas and I just about lost my mind (don't forget - in the middle of hell breaking loose is taping for Discovery Health). Anyway, lo and behold I pretty much wasted about $75 worth of Weight Watchers fee.

What kills me is that when I joined in November I weighed 236lbs and today I weigh 240.
4 POUNDS! 4 pounds in about a month and a half!? If I keep going at that rate, by 2010 I will be around 275lbs! But this eating good is hard - hard. There's always bariatric surgery, but how depressed will I be in 3 years when I gain all the weight back because I STILL THINK IT'S HARD TO EAT RIGHT! I need to work this out for myself, my children.... it's a daunting task. I almost wish I was addicted to Cocaine - if that were the case I could go away to some drug rehab and try to get clean (and health insurance would pay for it). Instead I have a problem with food (which I need in order to survive) - and they just keep the stores stocked with fattening (delicious) foods readily available. Where's the police? Where's the DEA (or FDA)? Who helps us fatties who can't help ourselves. Because it is food it is a lesser problem than Coccaine. We ARE killing ourselves, we ARE killing our children - AND with today's economy people are going to be giving blow jobs behind ACME to score some produce. They will call us Ham Whores! (you know, instead of Crack whores).

It is up to me to have the motivation and werewithal to get clean from saturated fats. I mean for goodness sake - OPRAH can't even do it and she has people cooking for her. It's daunting. Ok - let's get out of this mode or I will get defeated before I even start.